Been Hurt So Much...

Been Hurt...
by S. Thompson
Been hurt so much I don't know  how to allow myself to love, without all the
what if's I am constantly ask myself.
"What if he's lying? What if he's using me? What if I'm just convenience? What if he leaves me?"

Why do these questions come to my mind? Did you hurt me in the past: our past....wait a minute, yes, you did. It was years ago. Years later you did change, from years ago. But now I have changed.... I learned how to protect my heart and change the locks. But your figuring out how to unlock it. I try to throw you off your mission, but you don't take the "I think we should just be friends" bait. You want me to be your wife, not sure if I'm ready to be tied down with you for life... or if it's just my fear of taking a risk of possibly losing my happiness with you in my life?

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